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5/6/24

5/6/24 - A Needlessly Detailed Recolection of My Very Anxiety Filled Day:

Today I woke up with a START! I slept in 30 minutes and my parents were trying to wake me up (surprise surprise, being woken up by your mom shaking you by the shoulders telling you your dad made french toast is quite a confusing way to start the day)

Anyways, after I got ready and got to school and stuff, I had to do some stupid thing in social studies (my first period) and got ready for corral. Corral is basically studyhall but they REFUSE to let you call it studyhall. They mostly make us do weird reading assignments and stuff, but today was End of Year Test prep. My friends and I made a couple of hilarious 9/11 jokes (that may or may not have gotten us in trouble with our teacher but it was worth it) and I started off to english. I kinda (really) hate my enlish teacher. She's this old, skinny, blonde woman who we'll call Ms.Thompson. When I say skinny, I mean, like, anorexia skinny. I don't know how she hasn't withered away yet. We had to do this test thing for something or other (You can tell I don't try in her class) and I mostly drew the whole time. Oh, yeah, by the way, I really like to draw. I don't have an artstyle exactly, but its mainly funny doodles or anime and cartoon inspired drawings. Right, back on track, I really hate this woman. I left to science class where I could finally be free. I mean- not free but I at least have friends I can talk to in that class. In science I sit with my friend named Mateo (actually that's one of his names, but people know him mostly as another one.)

I Love sitting with Mateo becuase he's a Bisexual disaster who I relate to on a spiritual level. We actually only met this year (because I said I loved his hair, which by the way, is a new colour every week) but we're really close. I had a sleepover with him this week actually. Anygays- I mean- Anyways, We had do do something about a study guide in science, but neither of us really cared that much, so we didn't even try.

Lunch is the highlight of my day. I sit with Mateo, Sarah, Natalie, Roy, and sometimes Vick. We're a pretty artsy friendgroup, so we spend most of lunch drawing and making really questionable jokes that probably shouldn't be told at school. We saw a kid named Ferkle (not his name but yeah) and he was getting lunch detention. We were pretty happy about this because he's a total racist and homophobe. He said the F slur in first period, is what Roy told me.

Math and German were pretty uneventful, so I'm gonna skip that. Chorus however, is always interesting. See, we have the spring concert coming up in just a few days. We were preparing for the transitions. It's gonna be this thing where the curtains close and people do spolights in front of them. Theres one person for every transition. We also practiced the choreography for the closer. Its "Ain't No Mountain High Enough" by the way.

My last class of the day is childcare. Nothing interesting happens in that class for the most part, but I skipped most of it in the bathroom.

Now, I'm leaving school (I'm writing this on the bus ride home) and am probably gonna take the longest nap ever and forget to do my homework (like every night)

7/29/24

7/29/24 - So, Y'know About Shifting?:

Have you ever heard of this thing called "Reality Shifting"? It was really big on TikTok around 2020-2021. Basically, it's the beleif that you can shift your conciousnes into another reality, or become more aware of another reality. I have been pretty interested as of lately, started trying to shift in April or May. I took a break for a while because I was very demotivated after trying and failing a lot. I've come back from my break and feel like I've learned SOOOOOOOOO much more about shifting.

I realized a lot of thing I was doing "wrong" at first, such as using methods that don't work for me, putting my DR (Desired Reality) on a pedestal, focusing too much and accidentally grounding myself to my CR/OR (Current Reality/Orignal Reality), etc. A big thing that has helped me is remembering that when you script, you are not "creating" a reality, you are "selecting" a reality, one that already exists. There is always gonna be a reality where you go to Hogwarts and are dating Hermoine and are a Hufflepuff or whatever you script. Its almost like shopping. You are not creating the shirt that you buy, you are picking it out. It already exists and there are many like it, you are simply walking through a door to get to it.

I'm a bit skeptical that subliminals work, but I listen to them anyway and I THINK they do something. My current favorite DR is my South Park DR. I was (predictably) a victim of March 2023 South Park tiktok, so I've been scripting it for a while. I got really excited yesterday while attempting to shift. I was doing my own method (It's really not that special, I just affirm until I'm pretty focused on my DR and not my CR body, and then say "On the count of three, I will have shifted to my DR" and then count to three. After that I affirm and repeat if all this if I'm not fully sure I'm there) and saw a few flashes a light. I was wearing an eye covering thing because I have trouble keeping my eyes fully closed, so I knew it wasn't from the lights in my room. Then I saw a couple shapes I could make out as maybe people standing over me? To be honest, the energy coming off of them felt like my DR sister, Heidi. I got very happy because Heidi is my favorite character and started affirming more and more, stuff like "When I have shifted or am close, I will smell eggs and bacon", and "I am in my DR, I will open my eyes automatically when I've shifted"

My eyes were twitching like crazy and I got too excited and opened them early. I still am very happy about the attempt though. I've been updating my script and I really like the voice claim I chose...though maybe it's because I had a crush on this character when I was younger. It's Sam Manson by the way. I think adding all the tiny details to my DR is my favorite part of scripting. Like adding what's in my bag, or adding specific features my DR self has, or my signature scent. I used to use Notion for it, and still do on some smaller DRs, but now I use Lifa. Once my ask box/comment box/guest list is implimented, I'd love for you all togive me some shifting/scripting tips. Not only that, but tell me why and how it helped you. I stopped using heavy visualization methods and only visualize when I truly feel like I can focus on it because I have trouble not getting distracted. I also try to not use methods that include lots of counting because, although it is meant to let your body sleep and keep your mind awake, I find it too distracting and difficult to keep track of the number I'm on.

I found a method that I think is very funny and, to be honest, would probably work for a lot of people. I think it was called the "Method to Nowhere" method, and it basically goes "Close your eyes and affirm for a bit, until you've effectivley gaslit yourself into beleiving you're in your DR (Whether you actually are yet or not). Then try to shift from your DR to another reality. Wheter it is your OR, another DR, or whatever, just try. Then, give up on trying to shift to that other reality from your DR. It could be not working, no motivation, too tired, doesn't matter, just quit and tell yourself you're going to bed in your DR." Since our bodies are so used to waking up in the reality we are already in, it should trick us. I think the method could also work if you skip the "Travel to another reality from your DR" part, but it might've been added because many shifters who are trying new methods are very used to failed shifting attempts and waking u in the reality you fell asleep in.

I haven't tried it yet, but it sounds very plausable. I have done some research on shifting, but I certainly don't know everything. I really hope more people get into shifting though. And if you're seeing this, it's a sign from the universe that you should take up shifting and are close to getting to your desired reality! I've been seeing more angel numbers than before my break, and I'm really happy about that. Happy scripting!!